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Phoenix Musings
The fiery path
Created on 2002-12-01 07:14:41 (#796195), last updated 2009-05-31
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Basic Info| Name: | Rian |
|---|---|
| Birthdate: | 1981-05-13 |
| Location: | Beaumont, California, United States |
| Website: | Phoenix Version 5.13 |
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raul31143@yahoo.com BioI've had this journal for so long it's a bit difficult to try to explain who I am when I actually have to. I haven't had the easiest time getting to the place I am in my life right now. It's been a challenge with my own personal obstacles. Maybe not as impressive as the next person's hardships, but hard enough for me to face. And to overcome.
There's a lot of things that make up me. It's really difficult to say that I'm all one way more than I am another. There's as much bad as there is good. I'm not the bad I once believed I was and I can't possibly be the saintly good I wish I were. I'm a blend. And I'm okay with that.
At times I am very overlooked and at others, there seems to radiate a bit of a spark that will allow most people to pay attention. But just because I see that doesn't mean that most have seen it. Because truth be told there haven't been many knights throwing rocks up to my castle window, wagering a rescue. And until that time in which--maybe not even a knight--but an equal match comes up to me and places his lips on mine, I'm alone on this journey. Which isn't neccessarily a bad. I still retain the Phoenix that makes me fight and the Muse that keeps me dancing. Just because I'm solo at this point in time doesn't mean I'll rightly remain there.
If anything I'm going to enjoy every chance I can get to smile and laugh and act like a dumbass and be all spastic. Because if I've learned anything, it's that there is just as many good points to life as there is bad. And as frequent as the bad comes, there has to be a bit of good somewhere around as well. And at the moment, I'm allowing myself to keep up that search.
When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all up hill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest, if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As everyone of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow--
You may succeed with another blow.
Success is failure turned inside out--
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit--
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.
There's a lot of things that make up me. It's really difficult to say that I'm all one way more than I am another. There's as much bad as there is good. I'm not the bad I once believed I was and I can't possibly be the saintly good I wish I were. I'm a blend. And I'm okay with that.
At times I am very overlooked and at others, there seems to radiate a bit of a spark that will allow most people to pay attention. But just because I see that doesn't mean that most have seen it. Because truth be told there haven't been many knights throwing rocks up to my castle window, wagering a rescue. And until that time in which--maybe not even a knight--but an equal match comes up to me and places his lips on mine, I'm alone on this journey. Which isn't neccessarily a bad. I still retain the Phoenix that makes me fight and the Muse that keeps me dancing. Just because I'm solo at this point in time doesn't mean I'll rightly remain there.
If anything I'm going to enjoy every chance I can get to smile and laugh and act like a dumbass and be all spastic. Because if I've learned anything, it's that there is just as many good points to life as there is bad. And as frequent as the bad comes, there has to be a bit of good somewhere around as well. And at the moment, I'm allowing myself to keep up that search.
When the road you're trudging seems all up hill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest, if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As everyone of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow--
You may succeed with another blow.
Success is failure turned inside out--
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit--
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.
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